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I am pissed off, wee what a great emotion huh? I was supposed to babysit yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I was supposed to make $120.00 this week, but no I am down to 0. I am totally screwed if I end up bouncing checks because Christi decided to be lazy and not go to work I am going to be pissed, plus I own this guy on Ebay $16.30 for Sailor Moon videos, augh. I am pissed off at my other neighbor also, he left for Flordia and I suppose he assumed his retarded ex-wife was going to come to the house and feed his dog, but no the poor thing has been starving so I am stuck feeding her which is no problem, but anyways. Hunter is here screaming his lungs off, Today is my older sister's birthday, expect I am screwed I have no money to get her nothing now, tomorrow I am off to find a job, yay. My sister's cat is annoying he keeps trying to get me to pet him. I dislike her cats, they're annoying. I went to Blockbuster and rented "A Walk To Remember" kickass movie, when I have some money I will go buy the DVD. I hope Rach is feeling better, she was upset last night. Austin is funny, he's walking around in jeans in 93 degree weather, ok I guess I am going to sign off and clean my nasty bedroom.
-Crystal.
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[09 Jul 2002|03:31am] |
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Wow, I haven't updated this shit in like forever. I'm tired, but my body refuses to fall asleep. I didn't take any herbs today so I should be tired, but I did stay up night the other day playing Tony Hawk 3 until 6:30 and fell asleep watching the end of the "Virgin Suicdes" on television. I am so bored. I am watching "Loser" which is a really borning movie Jason Biggs has ever done. I am talking to Ian whom I haven't spoken to for almost 4 months now, he's in college. I'm so proud. I wish he could quit freaking signing off/on I'm tired of saying welcome back. He left, so yay. I am eventually going to go to bed.
I have a theory.
Alright, me and my little sister Katie have been bored obviously and we have came up with these stupid little things. She came up with the retarded twin popsicle thing, you curious? Go look at her livejournal.
Well, I am way to tired to fill out this damn thing, so I'm off for the night.
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[06 Jul 2002|03:11am] |
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I decided to give up on trying to make my livejournal look all spiffy and beautiful because I mean, d'uh crystal obviously sucks at html. I am tired of men period, screw them all. I will only say I am sworn off men until I turn 21. I will focus on nothing but my school, family, and work. I have learned how to make spiffy livejournal icons with the help of my very good at html little sister katie, thankkkkkk you.
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[03 Jul 2002|01:10pm] |
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[03 Jul 2002|12:47pm] |
I would of slept longer if my sister Katie wouldn't of started bugging me about school. "Crystal, are you going to school?" She has one of those annoying little voices when she wants you to answer her question right then and there. I just wanna smack her sometimes. I was supposed to go to the pool today but I haven't heard from Christi. I think today I'm gonna cut back to like 5 cigarettes a day until I can finally get to the point to quit smoking all together. I wish my Mom's damn dog would quit clawing my damn leg up. I think the whole Andy and Robbie thing should be cleared up by now. I talked to Robbie last night and he told me he wouldn't harass Andy, and I emailed Andy and told him to leave Robbie alone. I hate being the neutral party in all of this. I am praying to god I passed my first week of work I turned in for school, augh I hate summer school. I ended falling asleep at like 3 something last night, I was watching Daria "Is It Fall Yet?" Spiffy movie, I think MTV sold Daria to the .. whatever in the hell that channel is, Noggin or something.
Kickass song.
Uh Huh
Life's like this
Uh Huh
Uh Huh
That's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh Huh
Uh Huh
That's the way it is
Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay back
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin in your car
And you're talkin to me one-on-one
But you become
Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
You come over unannounced
Dressed up like you're somethin else
Where you are and where it's at you see
You're makin me
Laugh out
When you strike a pose
Take off
All your preppy clothes
You know
You're not foolin anyone
When you become
Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
(no no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay back
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
(yeah yeah)
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
I need to buy this cd, but I have no money. I'm poor.
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[02 Jul 2002|10:58pm] |
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I'm so fucking messed up, let me tell you. I have no job. I make a big .. well on good weeks $150.00 a week. I don't have a car yet. I don't even have my licenses. I mean I kinda well.. I don't know what in the hell I think I don't know what I am saying. I'm sick of this rain and gloomy weather. I'm supposed to go to the pool with Christi and the boys tomorrow, I don't know now seeing how the weather channel is doing nothing but saying it's going to do nothing this week but rain. I need to go out and get a job soon, my friend I used to work with Drew promised me a job back at Kroger, but augh. I hate working at the grocery store. I'd go somewhere cooler but nobody is hiring right now. I hate summer school with a passion. I mean I dislike summer school all together, I need to go tomorrow to see Art and ask him to help me with this lame ass English I am taking. I wish this damn rain would go away. Rain rain go awaaaaaay. oOO lighting. I just totally poured a whole bunch of stuff on my Mom, oppsy. Jen and Nick went out to the bowling alley, how romantic. I hate the bowling alley I have my very own stalker. I feel special. I need a shower
Anyways, I'm being directed by my little sister to sign off the computer because of the lighting. OoOO.. I only have one more comment to add.
Iittle vanilla: Marceeee!
Iittle vanilla: I love you!
Iicking paste: I know :-) <3
I love my Marcee, she's my best friend in this small world.
Well, ok I have two.
TrevorTakMeUnder: whos nilla?
I'm a nilla, kickass. Well, that's Cyndi's Rachael's friend.
I'm a cool chick, rawk on!!
Take the "Which Duckling are you?"quiz by Hazel
I'm not even a duckling, how rude is that stuff?
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[02 Jul 2002|06:12pm] |
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No more vacation for us. I think God doesn't want us to go. I mean everything is always in the way of going. I mean we lost our room because the hotel lost my Mom's check and wouldn't accept another. My Daddy is stuck doing this big job for almost a week straight now, sadly my Daddy's Aunt died this morning around 2:00AM. My Daddy is really upset, so I don't know what to do. I mean I know we gotta go to her funeral Friday. Robbie and Andy are like fighting through the damn emails which is really pathetic. Andy and Robbie need to hm, let's see. Grow up alittle? I gotta go, I need to go to do some thrilling schoolwork.
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I love this song by Avril Lavigne "Complicated" I'm being forced aganist my will to play "Mail" with my cousin Brooke. She's been playing this extremely boring game since she was 5. Anyways, Andy left yesterday which I didn't think I'd be sad or anything but it's weird not waking up talking to someone or seeing them in the hallway. Extremely creepy. He called me today and told me he got back ok. I gotta go to school tomorrow, wee. I love summer school.
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[01 Jul 2002|05:54pm] |
I adopted by very own Blob.
Isn't he just the sexiest? Well, I'm babysitting my cousin Brooke, and I had Brooke and Brynlee. I'm only stuck with Ryan and Dylan now.
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I'm trying to type the best I can but I got my neighbor Ryan sitting on my lap dancing around to Backstreet Boys. Ryan is punching his "friend", well hah now he is punching Andy. GO RYAN!!!!! Andy is mad because Dylan wacked him in the balls. Oh well. I hate summer school, I actually dread summer school. I have only one math thank god. I have one of the hardest English's in the whole school.
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[20 Jun 2002|06:01pm] |
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I only have one thing to say.
I hate poision ivy. I must of got the nasty little thing the other day when I attended my nephew Austin's baseball banquet. Grr, I hate the fucking oak trees. I wanna go see Star Wars. I've noticed I haven't wrote in my journal awhile. I'm lazy man. My bestest friend in the whole wide world is here and he's staying for another week which is ok I guess. I mean I know I will never get married for the reason I cannot stand someone always being around me, I like my alone time well doesn't everyone?
Anyways, Crystal is tired. I have summer school now which totally sucks ass, but oh well. I get to go see Jeff's thrilling face once a week now, oh my god major suicide. I hate the nickname Cristol Pistol. I got math, augh I freaking hate math. I have decided when I go into college I'm taking Criminal Justice, I like being nosey. Anyways, dinner time.
Love you all!
<33!
Me!
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[09 Jun 2002|11:00pm] |
01. I hurt: myself.
02. I love: my family & friends.
03. I hate: alot of people.
04. I cry: when I'm sad.
05. I fear: dieing alone.
06. I hope: my brother gets well soon.
08. I feel alone: never.
09. I kill: nothing.
10. I talk: to my mom.
11. I listen: kelly osbourne.
12. I break: nothing.
13. I see: my livejournal.
14. I am: tired.
15. I taste: rainbow sherbet baby bottle pop.
16. I work: tomorrow.
17. I remember: stuff.
18. I hold: everything.
19. I hide: my emotions.
20. I pray: everyday.
21. I walk: everywhere.
22. I drive: myself looney.
23. I read: books.
24. I burn: cd's.
25. I breathe: in smoke.
26. I play: mp3's.
27. I miss: being loved.
28. I touch: my keyboard?
29. I learn: school.
30. I feel: exhusted.
31. I know: stuff.
32. I said: I'm tired damnit.
33. I dream: a better me.
34. I have: issues.
35. I want: loved & wanted.
36. I fell: out of love.
37. I wait: for my car.
38. I need: to sleep.
39. I live: my family & friends.
40. I die: when I'm old.
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NICK IS HOME FOR GOOD, YAY!!! Jennifer will maybe be easy to live with now since he is living here now, expect the butthole stole my bed I have to sleep in mine now, augh. I love Jonathan's bed! I'm covered in furry dog hair, yummy. I had to shave my mom's dog she was covered in fur and now I have fur everywhere.
Sense Field
Save Yourself
Turn out the light
Just say goodnight, to yourself
May I remind you
When you find you, you're all alone is when you've got to be strong
Cause that's when they call you, in the night
He's got your picture in his mind
He's got your number on a paper at his disposal anytime
Is it really true
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away, to someone who
Someone who you
Met in bar
The back of a car
And for a moment you felt important but not in your heart
My self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than low
I know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me
I want to learn, how you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away to someone who, couldn't even remember your name
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me
Give it away to someone who someone who will cherish your name
Cause I want to learn, can you save yourself for
Someone who will love you for you so many times we
Just give it away, someone who, couldn't even remember your name
You save yourself for someone who, loves you for you,
Loves me for me
Give it away to someone who, someone who will
Cherish your name
Cherish your name
Kickass song <333!
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[03 Jun 2002|03:55pm] |
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I'm tired, I'm wore out. I'm so sick of being tired and worked to death. I mean I had to get up at like 5:30, well excuse me I was already up at 5:30 seeing how I was afraid to go to bed because I know I wouldn't get up because Christi wanted to go the gym this morning. And now I'm babysitting my cousin Kirsten. I mean she is a complete doll and I love her to death, but how come I don't deserve a break? I mean I know I could of said yes or no but I sorta kinda felt like I couldn't say no because she is my dad's cousin's little girl and my family. I'm just not how I used to be. I mean take me a year ago and I was social bug and I mean I literally was I mean I was always out and hanging out with friends and getting into trouble. I mean don't get me wrong I don't exactly miss that part of my old life but I miss the social stuff. I wanted to get a real job and maybe experience that now I'm stuck babysitting 5 days a week for $180.00. I miss some of the people I used to hang out with I don't miss Nickie, or Tiffany. I miss Tiffany some because believe it or not she and I were good friends until she turned into a whore, but I'm glad we aren't friends anymore because I know deep down I would of probably ended up knocked up, or something worse. I mean Tiffany is getting married at 17 years old, Nickie is having a kid and Danielle I have no clue. I miss highschool. I miss Joesph, and Eric. I miss them probably the most. I miss Joesph because he was pretty hot and he and I would of eventually got together and Eric.. well he was a sweetie. I'm glad I'm going to Faith Academy I'm making good grades because I was making horrible grades at Henry County, but you know I'm done blabbing like a moron. I'm going to the gym tomorrow to get sore and be in pain again I was in pain for 3 miserable days.
I'm palm beach barbie, kickass.
which Shakira are you?
by divachop and phantomx86
- Shrug - No comment?
See what drug you are.
I'm a fig newton, I'm drug free. -Evil Smirk - Drugs are bad kiddies!
I'm only 44% pure, how rude.
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I was to tired to update my journal last night I got in at 2:00AM. MY BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY IM 18!!!!!!!, I had a kickass birthday I didn't get the car I wanted, but my Mom and Dad promised me they would get me one eventually. I got a bunch of money which of course I'm putting in my checking account and embrassing my Aunt got me a g-string for a joke. HAHA, lame joke. Dude, I hate typing. ANYWAYS, I'm out.
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